E-mail from my teacher...

"please mara, i hope you understand......each and every day im weaker and weaker. not able to sleep unless its with pills. the pains are worse...and whats worse...im seeing lesser every week......could this be a sign? is my lifeforce fading? my light burning out? i hope not.not by this condition.my sons need me the most and doing all my best to be there for them....taking pills, rest ,..everything,...and still feeling im fading away,..and dont want to,...yet....
im not writing this for you to feel bad or anything,..but its for you to see that im not even half the man i was,..that what im doing is a sacrifice,..even if its just class on a saturday......hope you understand"

Oh God... he sounds like he's dying. Please, PLEASE! Don't take him away! Not yet....please, not yet....
Don't take my angel away...
not yet...

Edit:

He was forced into early retirement and no longer teaches art. However, he's still my very best friend in the world as I go visit him often and take him out when he's strong enough.

I've never done this before nor thought I ever would. Definitively not something I'd do for myself but...

If anyone would like to aid him in some way, even economical, would you? I'd be eternally grateful. I'm not even sure if it will "buy" him health as I don't know how his illness is treated but I do know he DOES need the economical support. He's a retired teacher, got retired from his very illness because he's not actually old enough for retiring age. yet, our effing government is very retarded he has not received ONE check yet! And it's been like 3 or 4 months.
So, he's been sacrificing his own health by trying to do art for sale to at least try and earn some money. Our academy, although is private it's also new and there's not enough students to help the director pay his check and he often finds himself not being paid for a class. I've actually given him money on several occasions. Usually have to shove it in his pocket or hide it somewhere he'll find it later because he won't accept it. Just like he won't dare accept free food even while his stomach is growling. just because he's way too humble.
If I had a job, if I could give him every single penny I earn I would. Just for him, because he really needs it. Way more than me. But I can't, I don't have enough, I don't work. Sometimes I actually just buy him things as he'd accept it easier that way, but I know, that when he actually has cash on him, it's all going to his family.


So please, if anyone out there could and is willing to help him in some way. Note me. I'll give you his address and even if it's only words or even advice, then I'll give you his email. And now I've made a Paypal donation account but I also have a regular bank account.

His illness is a branch from Moscular Dysptrophy calles Idiopathic Myopathy: A rare condition involving inflammation of the skeletal muscles which become weak and wasted.

I've seen him at his worst, whimpering and squirming from pain while his body spasms violently, and also how his son had to nearly drag him to the bathroom as he could hardly use his legs and how he screamed from pain as he sat him up from bed....and that is a HORRIBLE way to see a loved one.

I love this man so much, he means everything to me. He's the best friend I've ever had plus he's just a wonderful man in general and a great father too. He does NOT deserve any of this. it's so unfair! Even more that is something so damn complicated....freaking "Idiopathic", that only means they don't have a clue WTF is going on and where it came from or how to treat it.

The worst isn't just the pains, is that his lungs and heart are muscles too and he's been hospitalized from his lungs collapsing and had strokes before. twice in the nearly 3 years I've known him.

I wish I could do something for him. I'd give my BLOOD for him, my FLESH, my BONES, my whole freaking body if only that could heal him...

He's an angel...

So please, if you can... help him some.
Note me about it.

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